Today as i look around me

is this what God has given to me

a place so desolate,

a place where i can't trust no anyone around me

except myself?

Lifeless are those around me

feigning ignorance like carcasses

evading me like a plauge.

Forcing me to find an oasis on my own.

My oasis, My living water.

as i take each step

my feet sinks below the sand,

draining every soul in me.

as i carry life's heavy bagage upon my shoulders

emotions rage through me

as strong winds blow,

sand was blinding my very eyes,

slowing down my journey to "paradise".

the stronger the determination i had

the greater the deception i saw with my eyes.

Hungry, Thristy and Fatigue

i fell to my knees

crying out aloud,"God why?"

Anger, Hate and Dejection

drove me to prove to everyone that I could find it.

Alone.

Drained emotionally and mentally

I laid still on the soft sand

crying and realising that No I could not find it

on my own...

As the sand storm ceased,

my vision became clearer and clearer

looking all around me

I saw frimilar faces and cheery smiles

is this a mirage?

am I dreaming?

A man walked out from the crowd

bent down, dried my tears and embraced me

"I am Your Oasis, Your Living Water,

And I have always been right there beside You.

I Love You, My Child."