everytime i open my diary
i say i want to pour everything out.
but everytime i hold my pen
i find myself bottling up every single thing.

everytime i tell myself
go tell someone about how you're feeling
but whenever i get the opportunity
i hold them back thinking about how they will see me.

everytime i need to cry out the hurts and pains in my life
i numb myself so that people won`t see me.
everytime i wanna let God come in and help me
i feel that i am not worth His help.

everytime this happens,
i feel my life fall apart.
everytime this happens,
i feel rejected.

everytime this happens,
i feel lost.
everytime this happens,
i need to hold on to someone tight,
but at the end of it all i still let go
and everything just starts all over again.